Our upcoming move
Posted by Amber , Wednesday, June 11, 2008 Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Words can't express the emotions that I am experiencing as the time comes closer for us to move. It has been one of the hardest journey's of my life. As most of you may already know, I was born and raised in Colorado, leaving only for vacations 1-2 times a year. I grew up in the same house and always watched different friends move away. I honestly never imagined it would be me leaving because the 'normal' for me was to be here. Ben on the other hand grew up moving around all the time. He traveled every six months for long periods at a time. So naturally he loves to move and travel. This has been a challenging area in our marriage because when he would say "let's go", I would say "let's settle down". Well, now that we have been here 4 years, I figure it is time for me to sacrifice my comfort zone and embark on a new journey with my husband who is so eager to try something new.
So Hawaii, here we come! Don't get me wrong... I am thrilled that the Lord has given us the opportunity to move to such an amazing place. But... it is also very far away from the people I love so much. I grew up near my extended family and I loved that so much. I really enjoyed being able to spend weekends with my grandparents and have sleepovers with cousins. Now that I have Noah, I really want him to be able to spend lots of time with his grandparents. I feel like this move is going to keep him from that, even though I know many people who still have great relationships with their grandparents and didn't live near them.
Right now I am crying a lot and praying that the Lord will help me battle this emotional roller coaster that I know I must face. I am looking forward to having just Ben and Noah around to grow closer as a family together. I don't think I am going to be able to say "I am glad I did this" for a while though, not until I am healed from the emotions of leaving my parents, my siblings and my very special friends. God is good and I will do my best to lean on Him when I am sad.
Please for those of you who read our blog, pray for me and Ben and little Noah. We truly cherish you and will miss you so dearly.
